it’s so weird to think i actually really miss talking to you and you’ve been on my mind all day. im not gonna lie it’s pretty sad we had to stop talking, i’m not really good at just talking to someone then randomly just stop. it’s weird, i would’ve been okay if we just drifted or something, but we didn’t. we just had too because things were getting far when you already had a boyfriend. i just had so much fun talking to you.

i just think you’re so great, i hope you know that.

it’s nice to know how you really saw me as. Just an option. I tried so hard to show you that I wanted you through all the distance and through all the long years. I’ve dedicated myself to you wishing and waiting for us to finally be together in all aspects, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Through all that though, I was just still an option. I don’t know where I went wrong.

can someone just lay with me while listening to my itunes?

You don’t know how broken I’ve been. You think I’ll get over you cheating on me, but that’s the last thing I’ll ever have the motivation to do. I’ve been broken since I found out about him, beat myself up for being so blinded by it for 9 months. Why the fuck did I ever let myself believe that I could be the one to change you when all along you were the same person that could never be changed. there’s so many little things that I observed and decided to analyze putting myself in that state of mind that you never loved me like how I thought you did.